I'm thinking that MAYBE, just MAYBE, i have a chance of passing my classes this term. I need to so I can get into school at Umeå. One teacher told me that it's too late and I have to withdraw, but the others are being cool. Which means, that if I pass all five classes, I will need to take seven more classes in the spring in order to get in.
I can do it. My whole life, as long as I focus, I can do things in a pinch. It's just when I get lazy and too comfortable that things go badly. But I want this more than anything and I think I'll be okay. Honestly it's not even THAT much work, just a few projects and making a few postings a week.
And! Umeå has a policy that as long as I am working on my degree and will have it before I begin classes there, I can be admitted. This makes me happy since it means that if my school wont let me take 7 classes (six is maximum but I'm thinking maybe I can petition) can take a course during the summer and make it.
I'm just really scared i already fucked myself. I mean, i'm gonna try my best, but grades are a big part of getting in to grad school. Luckily I already have an A from the summer and that'll help offset anything bad. And I'm gonna work my ass off until the semester ends, so hopefully I can pull this off without any lasting consequences.
Gah. I just want this so much.
I can do it. My whole life, as long as I focus, I can do things in a pinch. It's just when I get lazy and too comfortable that things go badly. But I want this more than anything and I think I'll be okay. Honestly it's not even THAT much work, just a few projects and making a few postings a week.
And! Umeå has a policy that as long as I am working on my degree and will have it before I begin classes there, I can be admitted. This makes me happy since it means that if my school wont let me take 7 classes (six is maximum but I'm thinking maybe I can petition) can take a course during the summer and make it.
I'm just really scared i already fucked myself. I mean, i'm gonna try my best, but grades are a big part of getting in to grad school. Luckily I already have an A from the summer and that'll help offset anything bad. And I'm gonna work my ass off until the semester ends, so hopefully I can pull this off without any lasting consequences.
Gah. I just want this so much.
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Date: 2008-10-28 03:30 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-10-28 04:46 pm (UTC)I want tea tooooo but all i have is nasty insatant coffee packets! lol. I want some hot cocoa.
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Date: 2008-10-28 05:37 pm (UTC)I think in this friendship, I'm definitely the Jenny, and you're the Shane, then.
I want hot cocoa too, but that stuff is poison to me.
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Date: 2008-10-28 08:27 pm (UTC)and yeah, i know. i can only have the powder kind that has no milk lol.
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Date: 2008-10-28 08:29 pm (UTC)And the powder kind here has milk in it. "Milk powder" or something like that.
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Date: 2008-10-28 08:34 pm (UTC)well that's one thing about sweden that blows. i'll just have coke instead then. or dr. pepper.
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Date: 2008-10-28 08:37 pm (UTC)And sweet? Kind? Who the hell are you talking about? I'm the bitchiest bitch ever.
And who knows, I might be wrong about the hot chocolate thing, it's not like I'm a food expert or anything.
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Date: 2008-10-28 08:46 pm (UTC)And you're always sweet to me.
And is okay, i'll have dr pepper instead.