Yada Yada

I don't know why I called my grandpa, but I did. For some reason, instead of just depressing me to no end, what happened yesterday pissed me off. And I guess it was good, because instead of just listening to and accepting what he said, I fought back. I don't often do that when it comes to things about myself.

I basically just told him that he has no right to treat me like crap just because I'm family, and that just because I'm different than he is doesn't mean I'm less of a person.

I also emailed my dad. I don't expect a reply, but I told him that I've really been thinking about a lot of things lately, and that a lot of the things he did to me hurt. I asked why I was never good enough for him to feel anything about, one way or the other. Like I said, i don't expect he'll reply, but somehow it helped to get it off my chest.

I'm counting this as completed because it's HUGE for me. I've never stood up for myself before, when I really think about it. I kinda like  how it feels. Even if I'm wrong.