I caught a glimpse of myself in the elevator mirror

[mutedtempest]

and i have no idea how on earth anyone can look at me and not recoil in disgust. I am hideous. I'm not going to do anything drastic about it, but I hate the fact that I let myself get this way. I dont think it's my self-esteem either. I just think I've let myself become disgusting and I hate it.

DD didnt act like it bothered her, she hugged me anyway. she's very sweet. Her roomies were sweet too. I cant understand why people on the street didnt look at me as if i'm a freak. i feel like one. I mean, it's not that uncommon i guess, but i still hate it.

Oh well. I is fatty. I should be jolly. *drinks more Irn-Bru*

Comments

[darknessdee.insanejournal.com]

"and i have no idea how on earth anyone can look at me and not recoil in disgust."

Maybe because you're not hideous? lol, you sound worse than me now!