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I don't really know why I'm freaking out about money so much. I've always been poor so I don't get why this bugs me so much right now. I guess the pressure of earning $10,000 in 5 months is more than I can take.

I just dont know what to do if I cant make it. I have to have that money before I get my permit for sweden, and I just dont see how i can do that. I don't think it's possible and I'm freaking out about it.

I keep running through the options in my head, but I cant come up with anything. I'm basing my life around this because i want it so much and if i cant get it i dont know what i'm gonna do.

If i cant come up with something to afford this, I cant go to sweden at all. That's gonna fucking kill me.

Best/worst of 2008

Best: Tied for this are DD, getting back into uni and moving to Scotland.

Worst: probably a tie between my depression/anxiety and not being able to find a job.

Yours?