I just finished "You"
Dec. 16th, 2008 07:18 amI feel sort of accomplished. That story is a behemoth, and this was the 69th chapter (har-har). I'd had a fairly detailed 4 pages written for about two weeks now, but I decided that I really wanted to be done with it before I leave for Sweden on Wednesday. So I opened Word and prepared myself to write another 5 pages, but in the end I simply wrote a couple brief paragraphs.
I just posted it, and this is the message i gave to the people that will probably contact me. It's not that I think I have masses of adoring fans, but I've felt pressured about this story from several readers and I hope this little note is enough.
"I'm really sorry it's taken me so long to get this out. Life has been pretty hectic for me, and it's only going to get worse since I'm going into my final semester of undergrad and then onto graduate school. Because of that, I've decided that this is the final chapter of this particular story. I just don't have the time to devote to it that I once did, and when I sit down to write it I just feel anxious and pressured to get it done. I don't enjoy writing it anymore, not like I once did.
I'm still a Danish fan, but I think it's time for me to move on. Dana has been dead on the show for several years now, and while I still believe the decision to kill her sucked, life moves on. I simply don't feel the connection to this ship that I once did, and I don't think it's fair to myself or to you to drag this on when I'm just not feeling it anymore.
So, I apologize. I tried to end it on a happy note, and I hope that you don't feel like I'm shortchanging you too badly."
Honestly, I feel more accomplished and relieved about this than I do about the semester being over with, finally. I still have one class to finish by March, but aside from that one, I'm done until January 20th.
It's kinda surprising that I feel so good about this. I thought I would feel guilty, since back in October or November 2006 I promised that I would keep writing the stpry until the show ended. But fuck that, things are finally starting to go well for me and I don't want to chain myself to a story i don't like anymore.
I just posted it, and this is the message i gave to the people that will probably contact me. It's not that I think I have masses of adoring fans, but I've felt pressured about this story from several readers and I hope this little note is enough.
"I'm really sorry it's taken me so long to get this out. Life has been pretty hectic for me, and it's only going to get worse since I'm going into my final semester of undergrad and then onto graduate school. Because of that, I've decided that this is the final chapter of this particular story. I just don't have the time to devote to it that I once did, and when I sit down to write it I just feel anxious and pressured to get it done. I don't enjoy writing it anymore, not like I once did.
I'm still a Danish fan, but I think it's time for me to move on. Dana has been dead on the show for several years now, and while I still believe the decision to kill her sucked, life moves on. I simply don't feel the connection to this ship that I once did, and I don't think it's fair to myself or to you to drag this on when I'm just not feeling it anymore.
So, I apologize. I tried to end it on a happy note, and I hope that you don't feel like I'm shortchanging you too badly."
Honestly, I feel more accomplished and relieved about this than I do about the semester being over with, finally. I still have one class to finish by March, but aside from that one, I'm done until January 20th.
It's kinda surprising that I feel so good about this. I thought I would feel guilty, since back in October or November 2006 I promised that I would keep writing the stpry until the show ended. But fuck that, things are finally starting to go well for me and I don't want to chain myself to a story i don't like anymore.