I'm actually moved

Okay. I've been studying politics for a very long time now, close to the majority of my life, and I'm more than a little jaded. Honestly, I despise many of the things done by my government to the rest of the world, and to the citizens of its own country. (banning gay marriages anyone? Fuck Cali). I've been under the impression that it's a government of the rich, creating laws benefitting the other rich. And I think that to a large extent, I'm still correct about that. (Obama's campaign spent over $150 MILLION lol).

Still, for once in my memory, things worked. No matter how you might feel about Obama, this is historical. Watching black people crying over it on TVtoday, I was reminded of the video footage I watched of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr's "I Have a Dream" speech decades ago (they've been showing it on TV, I know, but at the time I didn't have any idea. lol). I wasn't alive during the bad parts of the civil rights movement (obviously), but I'm well aware of the bigoted attitudes many people still possess. Even in my hometown, there are many racists, my family included. So seeing him win by such a majority really made me happy.

Obviously things aren't perfect. While liberal, President Obama does not support gay rights. That makes me sad, but again, I'm reminded of the civil rights movement and how closely related it is to the gay rights movement. Yesterday in California, a law was passed called Proposition 8. This piece of legislation effectively writes discrimination into the California Constitution by banning and outlawing gay marriages. California is probably the most liberal state in the Union, and it makes me very, very sad.

Still, in my heart of hearts I know that any movement takes time to see significant change. The gay rights movement is still in its infancy in America, and while I don't want to spend my life suffering, I realize it'll take time. That's why i don't want to live in my country anymore; I'm tired of being considered less than a citizen.

Black people have put up with that for more than two centuries, and I don't want to take anything away from how amazing Obama's election is. It makes me proud to be an American for one of the first times in my life. I know things can't change overnight, but Obama gives me hope that they CAN change eventually. That's what I want, and he makes me believe it because I'm dead certain he believes it himself. His acceptance speech proved that; the man looked like he was going to cry when he said "out of many, we can be one." He believes in what America can be, and I think he's the perfect man to lead it.

With all the shit my country throws around on a daily basis, it can still surprise me with the good it can do every now and then.

I cant sleep

and I've been awake thinking about what I can do to save myself.

Short answer: nothing much. lol.

Longer answer: since rent is due on the 11th, and even if I get a job today I won't receive a check for at least a couple weeks, I won't be able to pay my rent. Rent is £69 per week or £300 monthly. I did pay a deposit when I moved in of £150, and since my roomie owns the place I could ask him to take two weeks out of that and just keep the deposit, and that I'll pay for any damages I make (not that I plan to make any).

This is all well and good, but I'm not sure it'll work. For one thing, I have been applying EVERYWHERE and have heard nothing yet, even from fast food places and temp agencies. Therefore, I have no idea when I'll be able to get a job, although I hope every day that someone will call. I also have absolutely no money and therefore if I do get an interview somewhere, I'll likely not be able to get to it, which doesnt help me a bit. (I applied to everywhere that I could close to here, but...meh. My luck none of them will call. If they do, hooray! lol).

That, and I have about a day and a half to two days before I run out of food. I bought some the other day but I didn't have enough to get much. So, yeah.

But I've decided that since I can't make money appear out of thin air, I'm not gonna stress myself into a coma over it. What happens is going to have to be what happens. I begged my family, no luck. I begged everyone else I could possibly think of, and there's just nothing more I can do. If I have to go on the street again and dig through garbage cans for dinner, well, it's not like I've never done that before. The UK is warm as fuck anyway, I'll be fine. It'll be a good way to lose weight, too. lol.

Honestly I'm sure I'll get a job very soon. Christmas is coming up and I've applied at about a thousand shops, they just don't hire for the holidays QUITE this early. Which sucks, but meh, what can I do?

So, I'm just sorta living with the attitude of what happens happens. There's nothing more I can do. In the meantime, I'm gonna enjoy my last week of internet and a warm home.

Annoying roommates suck

Okay, so this Swiss chick is really fucking annoying. She's nice enough, but Jesus Christ.

Tonight I needed to do laundry, so I put my clothes in and set the machine. It was set for 48 minutes on cold water, like I always have it. I put it in at 18:00, and started it. No problems.

I just went to the kitchen, where SwissBitch is cooking (which she does every day for at least three hours and makes faces when I go in there for any reason during that time). It's after 19:00 now and the machine says it still has 43 minutes left.

I was confused, and even moreso when she asked me if they were my clothes. Um, we're the only two people here, whose fucking clothes do you think they are? Then she asked me what the timer meant, if that was how many minutes were left. I said yes.

She HAD to have touched it. She just HAD to. She's the only one that's been in there, and it was working perfectly fine when I was in there before. Then she asks me "So it will be there for two hours, yes?"

I mean, I don't care if she fucked up and did something to it. But don't act all fucking innocent like you didn't touch the thing. She had to, there's no one else here. I just hope this doesn't hurt my clothes. If it does, I will be royally pissed off.

Also, the day after she moved in she asked if she could use my electrical adapter since she didnt do her research before she came and only brought a European one. I said she could, and she said she'd give it back the next day. That was Monday evening. It is now Thursday evening, and so far I have heard nothing from her about it. So, I asked if I could have it back, since my phone has gone three days without charging. She told me "I'm using it, tomorrow I'll give it back." Um, what? It's my fucking adapter! I don't wanna be rude, but fuck.

I don't know how they do things in Switzerland, but Jesus. I just feel she's pretty rude. Then the other night I came hoem with some groceries. I have a little fridge in my room, but I couldn't fit all the stuff in it (it's only a little beer fridge lol). She takes over the kitchen for at least three hours a night, and I went in there to put my extra food in the kitchen fridge. She gave me a funny look and said "You can put that somewhere in there if there's room." I wanted to smack her.

I've been here longer than she has and have been using that fridge since I moved in. I fucking KNOW I can put my food in there, I don't need her permission to do so.

I kinda get the feeling that she hasn't had roommates before, she's not very respectful. I fucking hate it. At least she's only here for five more weeks, and when she leaves I'll be going to Sweden.