The nightmares are back again
Jun. 1st, 2008 02:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mutedtempestI got a little bit of a reprieve, but they came back. I took a nap at about 8pm, and slept fitfully because it's hot. Anyway, I had one of the worst ones I've had in a very long time.
I don't remember much. All I know is that I was in a very old house, but it was actually my apartment, and i was in the bathtub with my dad, my stepmom, and my brothers. We were all in swimsuits and the tub was huge. My dad was telling us about how he'd punished my best friend, and I got really mad and said he wasn't allowed to touch her. He made a move like he was going to come at me, and I realized that I was being held prisoner there. Anyway, my brother Shane started to cry then, because in the dream he was a baby again. My dad took him under his arm and started to get out of the tub, and he said to me "I'm still mad at you."
I was still pissed off, so I said "I know you are and I don't give a shit. You hurt Leia." He got really upset at that and put his hand on my neck. His index finger was on one side of my throat and his thumb was on the other and he squeezed. I was fine with it at first because I'd been expecting it, so I didn't freak out. But then I started to black out and realized that I was still in a tub full of water, and if he made me pass out and I went under I was gonna be dead. So I tried to beg him to stop, and I put my hands up to take his hand off but I was too weak to do it.
A car honking on the street outside woke me up, so i have no idea what would have happened. But the expression on his face in the dream is still scaring the shit out of me when I close my eyes. I seriously don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.
I don't remember much. All I know is that I was in a very old house, but it was actually my apartment, and i was in the bathtub with my dad, my stepmom, and my brothers. We were all in swimsuits and the tub was huge. My dad was telling us about how he'd punished my best friend, and I got really mad and said he wasn't allowed to touch her. He made a move like he was going to come at me, and I realized that I was being held prisoner there. Anyway, my brother Shane started to cry then, because in the dream he was a baby again. My dad took him under his arm and started to get out of the tub, and he said to me "I'm still mad at you."
I was still pissed off, so I said "I know you are and I don't give a shit. You hurt Leia." He got really upset at that and put his hand on my neck. His index finger was on one side of my throat and his thumb was on the other and he squeezed. I was fine with it at first because I'd been expecting it, so I didn't freak out. But then I started to black out and realized that I was still in a tub full of water, and if he made me pass out and I went under I was gonna be dead. So I tried to beg him to stop, and I put my hands up to take his hand off but I was too weak to do it.
A car honking on the street outside woke me up, so i have no idea what would have happened. But the expression on his face in the dream is still scaring the shit out of me when I close my eyes. I seriously don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.
