So i am utterly fucked

Since I had to buy two more flights today and also food so i did not perish, i only have 1040GBP left out of the 1800 I came to the UK with.

This sucksfor many reasons, the main one being that deposits on apartments here are worth more than the rent itself. I've never heard of that, but here, if a place costs 400 a month to rent, the deposit to secure it is 675. I dont even have that much.

I hate it. I hated living with strnagers and now i have to do it again. I want to go home. I'm gonna try though.

In other news, still worried about bestfriend. 

I also almost died today. I was all fucked up because i had to spend the night in the airport and didnt eat well. I was high this morning and took insulin to correct it, then got low. I ate again and was high, and when I got to Edinburgh I passed out in Burger King. Then I walked to the hostel i'd looked up online, but there was no elevator and there were over 6o stairs to the top. I was in no condition, so I tried to walk to the place i stayed at before. It's only about 2 blocks away, but i couldnt breathe so i had to keep stopping. All I wanted was to sleep. But I forced myself to go on, and made it. The hostel staff gave me juice and I got better.

It has been a very bad day.