Rambly stuffs

I'm still trying to find a job. I now have less than six weeks until I'm supposed to fly, and I want some extra money. My financial aid awards are listed as "in review" on my school site, and while I'm trying to be positive, that scares me. But somehow I'm not having panic attacks about it. I feel like it's going to work out. I mean, there's nervousness, but it doesn't feel like it's all going to go to shit. I've learned to trust my instincts because they're right 99% of the time, so I think I'll get money for school. It may not be as much as they originally quoted me, but who cares? Anything will help.

But I want a job. A full time one, so I can actually save some money up. I still have at least $750 coming in from Lest, too, so I'll be all right. There are open interviews at a factory just outside town tomorrow afternoon, so I'm going out there. I also signed up at the temp agency, so hopefully something will happen soon.

The closer it gets, the more scared I am. It's a good scared though, so I'm glad. I feel like I just might deserve to get to go.

Also, I told someone how I felt. Again. I don't know why the fuck I'm constantly stupid enough to do that, it never ends well and it's never returned. I guess that's the curse though. I just cant believe I wrote her a love letter. Dumb move of the year. Oh well.

I'm fucking tired. i need a decent sleep schedule.

Good things? Possibly?

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