Good things? Possibly?

[mutedtempest]

Well, I went and applied at the factory just outside town this afternoon. I was really surprised when, during my interview, the lady said that she wanted to put my name in for an office position for the company since I have clerical experience. I said yes, of course. Interviews for that are later on this week, and she's going to call me as soon as one is available. And if I don't get the office position, she says she can get me into a packaging position without a problem.

So, yay. I mean, it's great news and I'm really happy. I have a good feeling about the company, too. I honestly think it's gonna go really well. The lady I interviewed with was really nice, and she liked my clothes. It's funny to me because I dressed in guys' clothes, minus the tie this time. lol. But she did say that even if I do get put into a warehouse position right now, with my experience being what it is, I can easily move into an office position before long.

I'm having a sort of internal battle about it, though. On one hand, it's a perfect opportunity for me. On the other, I'd only get to work there for 5 weeks tops before I leave for Scotland. That worries me, because what if I really like the job? If I quit after only a month, there isn't much chance of going back.

Granted, it's not my dream career by any means, but it'd be good for the next few years at least, if I were to stay in America. And I hate to admit it, but a part of me really does want it. I want to travel, but at the same time, I really do want my life to be simple. And with this job, it could be. I'd work in the office in the daytime and make enough to afford a little place somewhere, and I could write when I get off work. I could meet someone and settle down, maybe, and I could read lots of books and take classes in the evenings and then go home and write. Honestly, that sounds like a good life to me. It's not exciting and it's not worldly and it's not in any way intellectual, but it would make me very happy and calm to live that way.

But then again, if I do get the office job and decide not to go to Scotland, I'd regret it. (And no, DD, that doesn't mean I wouldn't go to see you. Even if I get the job and decide to stay in the US, I'd still go to Sweden). I just think that if I don't do the work visa thing now, I'll have my biggest fear come true, and I'll get stuck in this town that I love and hate at the same time. I don't want to do that...but then again, I do. I don't know. I wish I could make up my stupid mind that wants two things at once.

In other news, I finally got word from the financial aid office at my school. Their records show that I'm in default on a loan from Illinois State from years ago, and my aid is now on hold. Lucky for me though, I emailed the man in charge of that account and he has faxed proof that I'm not in fact in default to my current school. You still with me? That sounds complicated even to me, lol. But it's good, it means that on a few days my aid will be released.

Oh, and something that sucks: I went to Subway for a sandwich before I came home, and their card machine said that my debit card was overdrawn. Now, I should still have at least $20 on it, and indeed, that's what the account balance shows. But my available balance is somehow $4.36. I have no freaking idea why this is so, but I'm hungry. lol. I'm selling some things on ebay, so hopefully that will help in the next few days. I might also call my grandpa and tell him the situation, he'll probably loan me $50 or so.

Comments

[darknessdee.insanejournal.com]

...Or you could just move to Sweden.

And I dunno, but something about that post kinda hurts.

[mutedtempest.insanejournal.com]

I want to move there. You know that. And I'm not staying here. Don't worry, I just think about it sometimes, because it wouldn't be all bad. That doesn't mean it'd be good.

I'm just doubting myself. Hell, I haven't even heard from that place yet, so it probably wont even be a choice.