I can has happy

Things are going really well for me right now. I have the most awesome surrogate family (friends) ever, a fairly hopeless crush that still feels pretty nice, a bit of money with more on the way, and more than a few things to look forward to. As much as I worry and feel undeserving, I truly am very blessed and while it may not be the most exciting one on the planet, I'm very thankful for the life I'm being allowed to lead.

Tomorrow afternoon I'm taking a train down to Lund to get my student aid checks cashed and open a bank account. Then I'm heading to Malmö to present my case to Migrationsverket. I'm really trying to go into that with no expectations, but I have to admit that I'm really hoping they'll allow me to stay at least through the summer. It's not as if I won't be able to support myself, and I have a good network of friends here. I'm a student too, so...I know I shouldn't get my hopes up and I'm trying not to, but I can't exactly help it. I guess I just have to go, present the facts and let them decide as they see fit. Even in the worst case scenario (having to return to the States on January 20th) I'll still be able to come back in three months. Pretty positive I'll get SOMETHING, though. There's really no reason I shouldn't.

I'm trying to let myself enjoy this. I have a horrible habit of waiting for the next shoe to drop, so anytime I'm happy I tend to dread when it'll end. Pretty self-defeating, eh? I'm trying to work through that nasty little internal process. It takes just as much effort to be happy as it does to be miserable. Obviously bad things will still happen, but I'm a good person and I can appreciate the good things too. I have just as much right to be happy as anyone else, and why not be? I have an amazing life.

I can has happy

Things are going really well for me right now. I have the most awesome surrogate family (friends) ever, a fairly hopeless crush that still feels pretty nice, a bit of money with more on the way, and more than a few things to look forward to. As much as I worry and feel undeserving, I truly am very blessed and while it may not be the most exciting one on the planet, I'm very thankful for the life I'm being allowed to lead.

Tomorrow afternoon I'm taking a train down to Lund to get my student aid checks cashed and open a bank account. Then I'm heading to Malmö to present my case to Migrationsverket. I'm really trying to go into that with no expectations, but I have to admit that I'm really hoping they'll allow me to stay at least through the summer. It's not as if I won't be able to support myself, and I have a good network of friends here. I'm a student too, so...I know I shouldn't get my hopes up and I'm trying not to, but I can't exactly help it. I guess I just have to go, present the facts and let them decide as they see fit. Even in the worst case scenario (having to return to the States on January 20th) I'll still be able to come back in three months. Pretty positive I'll get SOMETHING, though. There's really no reason I shouldn't.

I'm trying to let myself enjoy this. I have a horrible habit of waiting for the next shoe to drop, so anytime I'm happy I tend to dread when it'll end. Pretty self-defeating, eh? I'm trying to work through that nasty little internal process. It takes just as much effort to be happy as it does to be miserable. Obviously bad things will still happen, but I'm a good person and I can appreciate the good things too. I have just as much right to be happy as anyone else, and why not be? I have an amazing life.