I am officialllt

thee biggest fucksdup ever.

I alsyways fuck uo the good tgubgs.

i want to notbe alive anymore.

I hate me. reallt and treuly hate me.

I has bank account!!

It's a big deal to me. lol.

I went and opened it this morning, no problems at all. Then I went to a Mexican place for lunch, and it was seriously the BEST Mexican food I have ever had. I even gave them a copy of my CV, because if I work there, i shall has food. lol.

I looked at a room. the house is incredible, but the room is a bit small. Besides, I really love the one i looked at yesterday. I texted the guy, and he said there are still people looking at it, so he'll let me know for sure tomorrow night. I REALLY hope i get it, the place is perfect and I'm in love with the room. It's in a really good area, too. want.

After looking at tinyroom, I took the bus out to the main mall, and I saw the ocean!!! I love that thing. Tomorrow, I'm gonna go back and hand out my CV to stores that are hiring, and then I'm gonna go to the beach. 

It hit me today that I actually did this. I was on the bus and I saw a road sign for Ocean Drive, and I thought about how there's a River Drive back home. And then I realized that I somehow made it here, which I never thought I could do. I'm actually a little bit proud that I did this. I may never do anything else good in my life, but at least I made it here. That has to count for something. I'm gonna enjoy this.

i really hate moodswings

I want to talk to someone. i need to talk to someone. i need to know i'm not alone.

i hate it. i hate feeling like this. i cant stop crying. i want to not be around anymore.

i'm so fucking worthless