83. Stop assuming the worst if people don’t talk to me for a day or more

I used to be really paranoid that people were just going to stop liking me all of a sudden. I don't really know why; probably just the self-esteem thing. Oh wells.

I don't know exactly when it changed, but I don't freak out anymore. If people really want to start disliking me all of a sudden for no reason, that's them, not me. And just because someone doesn't talk to me for awhile doesn't automatically mean they hate me.

So, um...yay progress? Lol.

I made more stuffs!!

It's kinda dumb, but because I wanted to procrastinate and not work on my homework (hey, I have all semester, and it's only half over dammit!!!) I made myself a journal for my poems.

Tis here: mtpoems

...joyjoyjoy

42. Get back in touch with my aunt Lori

The only good thing that happened yesterday was that I got to complete this task.

I adore my aunt Lori. She's my mom's only sister, and she's the only member of my family that I think cares about me at all. When I was younger, she was like...my best friend. I wanted her to adopt me. And she's been like that for years and years.

I don't really know why we lost touch, but yesterday we talked a little. She was the only one that didn't get on my case. Today, she emailed me and said that what the rest of them said to me was completely uncalled for ad she didn't like it, but that she loves me regardless and that I've done a lot of things that I should be proud of myself for.

Also, we have a dinner date this weekend! yay! I hearts her muchly.