Worthless

[mutedtempest]

I wish that I was better for her.

I'm never around when she needs me and even if I am i never say anything correctly.

They're taking my license away and pretty soon she'll go too.

I hate worrying this much but I can't fucking stop. i can't sleep, I'm too fucking worried about her and it doesn't make one goddamn bit of difference anyway. I'm too far away and I can't make her feel any better no matter what I do.

it's like there are a million pounds pressing down on me from every direction and I'm not sure how much longer I can keep this up before I fucking crack. I thought I could do it and move and go to school again but I fucking can't. i want the fucking constant anxiety to leave me the hell alone.

I want to be better for her.

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[darknessdee.insanejournal.com]

It's not your fault that I'm sick, like it's not my fault that you are. That's just how we're made.