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mutedtempestYep. I decided. It's been eating me alive and I just don't see the point in being in love with someone that will never be with me. It's a pipe dream.
It's not her fault, I just always wind up falling for people that I have absolutely no chance with. And it's not like I blame them. I'd never be with me either, if I had the choice. And it's not as if I'm upset or angry or anything. I'm just really tired of feeling sad, so I'm not going to feel sad anymore. I'm not going to feel love anymore. Not like this because it hurts too much.
And the really funny thing is that it's all my own fucking fault. I knew I'd never have a chance, and I told myself I wasn't gonna let myself go there. And then I did, because I'm an idiot. And it doesn't even matter because I knew it would be like this. Why the fuck would anyone ever be with someone like me? It doesn't make any sense. I'm done, I can't keep feeling this way knowing that I have no shot. It's too hard and she doesn't deserve to have me feel that way anyway. She deserves so much better than that.
It's not her fault, I just always wind up falling for people that I have absolutely no chance with. And it's not like I blame them. I'd never be with me either, if I had the choice. And it's not as if I'm upset or angry or anything. I'm just really tired of feeling sad, so I'm not going to feel sad anymore. I'm not going to feel love anymore. Not like this because it hurts too much.
And the really funny thing is that it's all my own fucking fault. I knew I'd never have a chance, and I told myself I wasn't gonna let myself go there. And then I did, because I'm an idiot. And it doesn't even matter because I knew it would be like this. Why the fuck would anyone ever be with someone like me? It doesn't make any sense. I'm done, I can't keep feeling this way knowing that I have no shot. It's too hard and she doesn't deserve to have me feel that way anyway. She deserves so much better than that.
Blah. Fuck it. I just needed to vent.
