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Which means that I have to write 50,000 words in November. What a great time to be burnt out on fanfic! lol.
Honestly I think it'll be fine. I like writing shennyfic so I can do all the challenges on DD's site and then I can finish my week of porn story. And I can work on my novel idea.
It'll be tough since I'm still in school, although that's going shitty because this goddamn computer cant handle the school site, and I cant access a goddamn thing. But I'm trying, and all I need to do is pass. I have about a month and a half to get caught up. I think I can do this.
Now I just need a decent computer. I've been doing school stuff at internet cafes because i dont have any choice. I've been looking for a used computer on a local classified site, and I've found some that sound fine, but they're far away and I really cant afford train fare to get them. I found one tonight that's in the ciry and looks good, but the owner isnt going to be in town until Wednesday! Sigh. It just really fucking blows.
But! Today I went to the sea. I took the wrong bus earlier and it went by the seaside section of the city, so I got off the bus, jumped gracelessly over a low stone wall and onto the sand. Then I got happy and ran all the way to the water and splashed in it with all my clothes on. A dog walking with his human on the beach thought it looked like fun, so he joined me. His owner laughed at us.
Then I stopped acting like a two year old and stood on the beach in the salty wind and took pictures on my phone. It's just so damn gorgeous there. I mean, you cant look at the sky and the ocean there where they meet and not know that there's a God.
I cried for about half an hour. It just finally hit me today that I actually made it here. It was a little overwhelming. Most of the time I don't even think about it, but today I kinda had to since I was staring at the Atlantic. For a street kid from a landlocked state, that's a miracle.
Honestly I think it'll be fine. I like writing shennyfic so I can do all the challenges on DD's site and then I can finish my week of porn story. And I can work on my novel idea.
It'll be tough since I'm still in school, although that's going shitty because this goddamn computer cant handle the school site, and I cant access a goddamn thing. But I'm trying, and all I need to do is pass. I have about a month and a half to get caught up. I think I can do this.
Now I just need a decent computer. I've been doing school stuff at internet cafes because i dont have any choice. I've been looking for a used computer on a local classified site, and I've found some that sound fine, but they're far away and I really cant afford train fare to get them. I found one tonight that's in the ciry and looks good, but the owner isnt going to be in town until Wednesday! Sigh. It just really fucking blows.
But! Today I went to the sea. I took the wrong bus earlier and it went by the seaside section of the city, so I got off the bus, jumped gracelessly over a low stone wall and onto the sand. Then I got happy and ran all the way to the water and splashed in it with all my clothes on. A dog walking with his human on the beach thought it looked like fun, so he joined me. His owner laughed at us.
Then I stopped acting like a two year old and stood on the beach in the salty wind and took pictures on my phone. It's just so damn gorgeous there. I mean, you cant look at the sky and the ocean there where they meet and not know that there's a God.
I cried for about half an hour. It just finally hit me today that I actually made it here. It was a little overwhelming. Most of the time I don't even think about it, but today I kinda had to since I was staring at the Atlantic. For a street kid from a landlocked state, that's a miracle.